And my emotional roller coaster continues! I went to my neighbor’s high school graduation party tonight and saw so many dearly missed old faces, but now we are all grown up! Almost all of us ‘kids’ will be in college, or graduating, or off to graduate school. I grew up with them and now we all live in different states, only having a few days a year (if we’re lucky) to get together and reconnect. I don’t miss high school or any of that bullshit, but I do miss when I practically lived at the Gunawardana household…when I spent more time with their parents than my own…hanging out everyday after school or almost every weekend. Maybe that is the best part of childhood: the ability to spend so much time with the people you love. I feel like now my heart is scattered in pieces all over the world.
It’s been so hard to deal with this “where is my life” thing ever since I was a freshman. And now that I’m in College Park, every time I come home to visit (like now) I sort of just want to say “fuck it” and stay here. Unfortunately my boyfriend & many friends are in Maryland but I don’t think I could ever call it a home for more than another year. People drive like fucking maniacs and parts of PG and Montgomery county (or the ones that I drive through) are soul-crushingly hideous. Not that New York is so beautiful, it’s probably uglier but I’m into it. I got offered a retail job at an outdoor italian villa style ourdoor outlet mall on Long Island though, so I could always take that route… ey…
